What's the point?
What's the point in living if all you do is stress everybody out? My speed at work has slowed down and now I am nothing more than stress for my mom.
We lost my grandpa (mom's dad) last week, had the visitation and funeral on Saturday, then a visitation and the burial on Monday.
My car then decided to fuck up (on the way to the burial), so now I have a rental car that costs $57/day and if the warranty doesn't cover my engine, it will cost more than I paid for the car 4 months ago.
My parents drove 2 hours to see the new furniture that I got delivered today, and the thought was to either go look at cars or get my stuff out of mine, but since I hadn't heard back about the warranty, I wasn't really keen on either idea. The thought of getting a new car in 4 months is beyond depressing. My mom had planned to do [i]something[i] for traveling 2 hours, but the only other thing was cleaning my living room.
My parents and I finally decided to go out to lunch. My mom was so stressed, because of me today, that she ended up taking a Xanax (prescribed).
I just don't know how much more I can handle at this point. Like, I do but don't want to die right now. Please just pray that these thoughts and feelings go away soon.
We lost my grandpa (mom's dad) last week, had the visitation and funeral on Saturday, then a visitation and the burial on Monday.
My car then decided to fuck up (on the way to the burial), so now I have a rental car that costs $57/day and if the warranty doesn't cover my engine, it will cost more than I paid for the car 4 months ago.
My parents drove 2 hours to see the new furniture that I got delivered today, and the thought was to either go look at cars or get my stuff out of mine, but since I hadn't heard back about the warranty, I wasn't really keen on either idea. The thought of getting a new car in 4 months is beyond depressing. My mom had planned to do [i]something[i] for traveling 2 hours, but the only other thing was cleaning my living room.
My parents and I finally decided to go out to lunch. My mom was so stressed, because of me today, that she ended up taking a Xanax (prescribed).
I just don't know how much more I can handle at this point. Like, I do but don't want to die right now. Please just pray that these thoughts and feelings go away soon.
36-40, F
