I don't know
I seriously don't know how much more I can take. I've been having some of the worst suicidal thoughts I've had in almost 13 years. I don't know that I can trust my work "friends" anymore than I can some rando on the street. How am I supposed to help people in mental health crises when I'm in one myself? I cut myself yesterday, and it didn't feel as good as i need it to.
Like, even my mom doesn't seem to want to celebrate Christmas really quick before they head from my house to Mississippi for my aunt's birthday (they are leaving Thursday and the party is Friday or Saturday). They have like 2-3 presents each, so it's not like it will take long. I suggested my going to their house next week so we can celebrate it, but my mom came up with excuses for that, too.
Nobody wants me, so what's the point in being here, anyway?
Like, even my mom doesn't seem to want to celebrate Christmas really quick before they head from my house to Mississippi for my aunt's birthday (they are leaving Thursday and the party is Friday or Saturday). They have like 2-3 presents each, so it's not like it will take long. I suggested my going to their house next week so we can celebrate it, but my mom came up with excuses for that, too.
Nobody wants me, so what's the point in being here, anyway?
36-40, F
