I Feel So Depressed Someone Please Help
UPDATED. AGAIN.
An Update.
I could never be myself. I've missed my menstrual cycle for two months. My breasts are toughening and smell like sour milk. I've been suffering with stiffness and pains in my neck and pains in my stomach. My depression is worsening and all I could recollect is the fact that I am being raped and impregnated while I'm having seizures by my Foster Mother's boyfriend and his family whom she pretends not to know. No Doctor can diagnose me, as my test results and scans are being hacked by my Foster Mother's Family in India. There is no way out for me, as my Foster Mother had me misdiagnosed and placed in the unit for attempted suicide at sixteen years old, just to cover up for her hatred and vindictiveness towards me, as she'd had her boyfriend and his family drug and rape me into dementia. I've had so many signs from since my teens that she'd drugged me, but could not report anything, as I thought no one would believe me. I tried somehow to tell someone, but as cause of myself being misdiagnosed, people thought I was hallucinating, even with the fact that I was being abused by my Foster Mother on a daily basis...
The only proof I have today is the evidence in regards to my disability benefits, or social security income. Upon my Foster Mother opening up an account that belonged to me in my name with her power of attorney over the account, I went home and fell asleep, as I was severely intoxicated not only with anti-psych meds, but as cause of my Foster Mother's boyfriend's family drugging me. As a matter of fact, I never even knew that I'd opened up an account with disablilty pay, or even received a disablilty check in regards to myself being so intoxicated. I only knew about the account and its assets when I started to work, whereas, my disability income was reduced, which made my Foster Mother infuriated, as she drugged me to fail at every single job I'd had. She forced me to go to social security several times to dispute, until I grew suspicious on why she wanted so much money out of my most recent job. She threatened me for my entire two week paycheck at my retail job, where I'd worked for absolutely nothing. She then started to threaten me for my paycheck while I worked at the bank as a teller, or the only job that raised my self esteem. I was forced to pay her money from a two week paycheck that I didn't have and when I didn't comply, she'd lock me out of the house on a Saturday afternoon, when I'd came home from my bank job. When she had her boyfriend and his family come in and impregnate me, as I'd missed my period for several months, it finally came heavily on a day where I had to go to work. I was bleeding profusely, I was severely dizzy, I was pale, I couldn't eat, and I was in a tremendous amount of pain. During the course of the day, I mishandled a transaction and was short a massive amount of money, which led to my termination a month later, as the bank had to investigate. At that time while I'd worked at the bank, my Foster Mother left money on the dresser, only for her boyfriend and his family members to take, or the money I'd given her. I once gave her $200 the night before. She left it on her dresser into the other day. When I left for work, the $200 I'd given her was still on the dresser. When I came home, it was gone and when I'd questioned her in regards to coming home during the day, she said she hadn't...
I recently gained access to my account around 2 years ago or so, but only by electronic transfer. When I checked my payment records on my social security account website, it indicated that I'd been receiving money even while I was working in both retail and at the bank, which my Foster Mother'd lied and told me she received not a penny, or nothing at all. The thing that I'd began to notice was that upon gaining access to The Chase Bank site was how the money was withdrawn from the account and by whom. On the days my Foster Mother wasn't even at work, and at home with myself, that money was withdrawn via ATM at the Bank closest to her workplace and both her workplace and the bank are three miles away from where we live. There are even specific times that the money was withdrawn, and she'd just left home for work exactly two minutes before the transaction took place. If she has power of attorney over my account, she may have more than one ATM card as a shareholder to the account. At least one of them is most likely NOT in her possession, as the funds from the account are definitely withdrawn from the account while she is not at the bank, and as I've mentioned, I DO NOT HAVE ACCESS TO MY ATM CARD AND NEVER HAVE. I've mentioned that I was too intoxicated and also remember being threatened not so long ago and warned that "I WAS NOT ALLOWED TO HAVE ACCESS TO MY OWN ACCOUNT, AS THE MONEY IS THERE TO SUPPORT ME IN HER HOME. I was even arrested by the cops, after my Foster Mother'd called them to report me for stealing $5000 from her, after she has over $100,000 from my Father's will, which she didn't tell me about until after my arrest and release.
My Step Mother claimed that my Foster Mother has that money, prior to this mess, as the money'd came from his property in Guyana in which he'd sold. I didn't know what to believe, until my Foster Mother told me the worthiness of the place, as I hadn't paid much attention to my Step Mother...
When I asked her to show me how much my Father'd left for me in his will, she called me a "theif" because she claimed that I'd stolen from her and with reluctance, she cussed at me and threatened to call the police on me again for having a verbal altercation with her, as the police themselves warned her to do so if things got out of hand between she and I. Not only was I wrongfully arrested by a group of police whom she told that my Father "was not around", but she made out like a bandit with hundreds of thousands of my Father's money, in which she is slowly trying to kill me over. I've mentioned that her boyfriend and his family are slowly mutilating me and have been over the years. My biggest fear is that she may have me arrested yet again for some petty nonsense because of the polices' incapability to further examine 'possibility' in a situation in which they'd neglected and arrested an innocent person for. After all, they did tell her to call them whenever she'd had problems with me, and they did come back after my arrest to ask her if I was behaving, didn't they?!
I apologize to everyone on this site for being so repetitive and for using so many "I" Statements, as it is a small world I'm living in. I'm sure if you knew that you lived in a liberated, rich country, struggling because of someone else's or a group of people's vindictiveness and hatred towards you, with absolutely no way out, you'd be just as bitter as I am. I'm sure if you knew that you'd lived in a country where it's liberties were taken advantage of, you wouldn't be happy...you'd want to die, just like me.
An Update.
I could never be myself. I've missed my menstrual cycle for two months. My breasts are toughening and smell like sour milk. I've been suffering with stiffness and pains in my neck and pains in my stomach. My depression is worsening and all I could recollect is the fact that I am being raped and impregnated while I'm having seizures by my Foster Mother's boyfriend and his family whom she pretends not to know. No Doctor can diagnose me, as my test results and scans are being hacked by my Foster Mother's Family in India. There is no way out for me, as my Foster Mother had me misdiagnosed and placed in the unit for attempted suicide at sixteen years old, just to cover up for her hatred and vindictiveness towards me, as she'd had her boyfriend and his family drug and rape me into dementia. I've had so many signs from since my teens that she'd drugged me, but could not report anything, as I thought no one would believe me. I tried somehow to tell someone, but as cause of myself being misdiagnosed, people thought I was hallucinating, even with the fact that I was being abused by my Foster Mother on a daily basis...
The only proof I have today is the evidence in regards to my disability benefits, or social security income. Upon my Foster Mother opening up an account that belonged to me in my name with her power of attorney over the account, I went home and fell asleep, as I was severely intoxicated not only with anti-psych meds, but as cause of my Foster Mother's boyfriend's family drugging me. As a matter of fact, I never even knew that I'd opened up an account with disablilty pay, or even received a disablilty check in regards to myself being so intoxicated. I only knew about the account and its assets when I started to work, whereas, my disability income was reduced, which made my Foster Mother infuriated, as she drugged me to fail at every single job I'd had. She forced me to go to social security several times to dispute, until I grew suspicious on why she wanted so much money out of my most recent job. She threatened me for my entire two week paycheck at my retail job, where I'd worked for absolutely nothing. She then started to threaten me for my paycheck while I worked at the bank as a teller, or the only job that raised my self esteem. I was forced to pay her money from a two week paycheck that I didn't have and when I didn't comply, she'd lock me out of the house on a Saturday afternoon, when I'd came home from my bank job. When she had her boyfriend and his family come in and impregnate me, as I'd missed my period for several months, it finally came heavily on a day where I had to go to work. I was bleeding profusely, I was severely dizzy, I was pale, I couldn't eat, and I was in a tremendous amount of pain. During the course of the day, I mishandled a transaction and was short a massive amount of money, which led to my termination a month later, as the bank had to investigate. At that time while I'd worked at the bank, my Foster Mother left money on the dresser, only for her boyfriend and his family members to take, or the money I'd given her. I once gave her $200 the night before. She left it on her dresser into the other day. When I left for work, the $200 I'd given her was still on the dresser. When I came home, it was gone and when I'd questioned her in regards to coming home during the day, she said she hadn't...
I recently gained access to my account around 2 years ago or so, but only by electronic transfer. When I checked my payment records on my social security account website, it indicated that I'd been receiving money even while I was working in both retail and at the bank, which my Foster Mother'd lied and told me she received not a penny, or nothing at all. The thing that I'd began to notice was that upon gaining access to The Chase Bank site was how the money was withdrawn from the account and by whom. On the days my Foster Mother wasn't even at work, and at home with myself, that money was withdrawn via ATM at the Bank closest to her workplace and both her workplace and the bank are three miles away from where we live. There are even specific times that the money was withdrawn, and she'd just left home for work exactly two minutes before the transaction took place. If she has power of attorney over my account, she may have more than one ATM card as a shareholder to the account. At least one of them is most likely NOT in her possession, as the funds from the account are definitely withdrawn from the account while she is not at the bank, and as I've mentioned, I DO NOT HAVE ACCESS TO MY ATM CARD AND NEVER HAVE. I've mentioned that I was too intoxicated and also remember being threatened not so long ago and warned that "I WAS NOT ALLOWED TO HAVE ACCESS TO MY OWN ACCOUNT, AS THE MONEY IS THERE TO SUPPORT ME IN HER HOME. I was even arrested by the cops, after my Foster Mother'd called them to report me for stealing $5000 from her, after she has over $100,000 from my Father's will, which she didn't tell me about until after my arrest and release.
My Step Mother claimed that my Foster Mother has that money, prior to this mess, as the money'd came from his property in Guyana in which he'd sold. I didn't know what to believe, until my Foster Mother told me the worthiness of the place, as I hadn't paid much attention to my Step Mother...
When I asked her to show me how much my Father'd left for me in his will, she called me a "theif" because she claimed that I'd stolen from her and with reluctance, she cussed at me and threatened to call the police on me again for having a verbal altercation with her, as the police themselves warned her to do so if things got out of hand between she and I. Not only was I wrongfully arrested by a group of police whom she told that my Father "was not around", but she made out like a bandit with hundreds of thousands of my Father's money, in which she is slowly trying to kill me over. I've mentioned that her boyfriend and his family are slowly mutilating me and have been over the years. My biggest fear is that she may have me arrested yet again for some petty nonsense because of the polices' incapability to further examine 'possibility' in a situation in which they'd neglected and arrested an innocent person for. After all, they did tell her to call them whenever she'd had problems with me, and they did come back after my arrest to ask her if I was behaving, didn't they?!
I apologize to everyone on this site for being so repetitive and for using so many "I" Statements, as it is a small world I'm living in. I'm sure if you knew that you lived in a liberated, rich country, struggling because of someone else's or a group of people's vindictiveness and hatred towards you, with absolutely no way out, you'd be just as bitter as I am. I'm sure if you knew that you'd lived in a country where it's liberties were taken advantage of, you wouldn't be happy...you'd want to die, just like me.
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