I Battle Depression

It has been a while since I posted anything of substance and the reason for this is because I've been slowly slipping deeper and deeper into the quagmire of depression. Staving it off no longer seems to be an option. But this depression is worse than the usual bouts I suffer, this is tinged with a deep-seated despair. A feeling of absolute pointlessness has gripped, not only my heart, but my head too. Usually when this happens it's an emotional thing and I can still "logic" my way out of it. But this time, the logic seems to have evaporated too. ISIS, Trump, Putin, Brexit, Syria, Iraq, Sudan (the list seems endless) make me question the sanity of the world in general!

I just don't see the point of anything at the moment. Nothing at all. I had friends come round for late lunch on Saturday and usually I enjoy spending time with them but all I really wanted was for them to leave so I could curl up on the couch and cry.

It truly is a gut wrenching despair that has gripped me and I'm not sure I will shake it, I'm not sure I have the energy required for the task or even the will to do so.

I just want to go to bed, turn off the lights and close my eyes ...