I Am Depressed More Than People Realize

I looked in the mirror properly after quite a while today. I hated myself. Pale, dark circles around my dull eyes, rims of melanin where my sleeves would end, where my shoes wouldn't cover my feet...looking like I hadn't washed my arms or feet in quite a while, when it was just sun-burnt skin. Pimple scars all over my face that I had compulsively picked on during exams out of stress. Just a thin stream of rough, lustreless hair. Eyebrows haywire, baby curls resting untidily on my forehead. A bad posture. Ugly feet.
Yes, I stopped looking after myself since depression hit hard. It makes you ugly and unwanted.