I Battle Depression
I feel like i'm dancing on the edge of a cliff. I go to work, get through the day and come home exhausted and towards the end wonder just how I can do it all over again. I feel like i'm reaching a breaking point yet I'm holding myself together for now.
Depression has always been a part of me and it never gets any easier. At least now it hits me in waves, i can go months being fine and then bam suddenly it hits me. This week it hit me again, it came gradually at first and then the dam broke.
Right now I feel hollow, tired and I just do not care. I don't even care about girls anymore and I used to love approaching some now I just wonder why I should even bother or care, its not like it really turns into anything.
I walk isolated and alone, even from those whom I talk to they cannot reach me, they cannot see me. It's not their fault its just the way it is.
It's time like this I wonder just what am I doing with my life? What is the point of it all. I know i'm not happy, not really but I don't even know what would make me happy, to begin with.
Right now I feel like i'm fading away.
Of course, i'm exaggerating all of this to a certain extent, these feelings will no doubt pass with time and suddenly the cloud will lift once I find my strength to push through. But right now I am alone and I wanted to express these feelings, perhaps even for others who can relate and can take comfort in my expression.
Depression has always been a part of me and it never gets any easier. At least now it hits me in waves, i can go months being fine and then bam suddenly it hits me. This week it hit me again, it came gradually at first and then the dam broke.
Right now I feel hollow, tired and I just do not care. I don't even care about girls anymore and I used to love approaching some now I just wonder why I should even bother or care, its not like it really turns into anything.
I walk isolated and alone, even from those whom I talk to they cannot reach me, they cannot see me. It's not their fault its just the way it is.
It's time like this I wonder just what am I doing with my life? What is the point of it all. I know i'm not happy, not really but I don't even know what would make me happy, to begin with.
Right now I feel like i'm fading away.
Of course, i'm exaggerating all of this to a certain extent, these feelings will no doubt pass with time and suddenly the cloud will lift once I find my strength to push through. But right now I am alone and I wanted to express these feelings, perhaps even for others who can relate and can take comfort in my expression.
