I Am Depressed

I expect nobody to see this, and it's probably better off that way. For the first time in a while, I realised just how unnecessary, unlovable, and undesirable I really am. Everyone leaves me in the end, there's some fundamental flaw that stops people from ever loving me as anything more than a family member or casual, throwaway friend. Maybe everyone would be better off without me around.

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littlepinklotus · 41-45, F

Stop it! That's just not true. Everyone is with worth being loved and wanted. I feel that way a lot as well. People leave me a lot too. But lately its actually gotten better. I had not had a real friend in years. But I have a steady friend now and she's awesome. I also know people love me and like me. It may not always feel that way because our scars tend to run deep but its true. Don't give up sweetie. Things are capable of getting better. You are worth the world and someone out there is going to see it. I see it. I don't know you but I can tell you, you are worth living on this earth and finding happiness. Go talk to someone in your area if you need too. But please don't do anything stupid.

SW-User

@littlepinklotus: 😭 I'm not one to actually hurt myself.

littlepinklotus · 41-45, F

@KiwiDan: Well good. but still talk to someone. And if you ever need to message me. I can listen if you ever just want to vent.

SW-User

@littlepinklotus: Thanks, but I don't even know what it is that I want at this point. Just for everything to stop.

littlepinklotus · 41-45, F

@KiwiDan: do you get out much or are just always at home?

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@littlepinklotus: I try to get out as much as I can.

littlepinklotus · 41-45, F

@KiwiDan: good. at least you try. don't just stay home. Maybe join some kind of activity where you can meet new people.