I Battle Depression
It's been a while since I've felt quite this bad. And when I say a while I mean years.
You know that feeling where you feel completely worthless? Where you're convinced that the world is better off without you in it? That if you disappeared tomorrow the only people to look for you would be the bank when your mortgage payment doesn't go through? That feeling where just getting out of bed takes up the energy that is meant to last you the entire day? That feeling where the fact that it's bin day and you have to take it out makes you cry? THAT is where I am at the moment!
I've felt myself slipping for a little while now and usually I'm strong enough to stave off the onslaught but this time I is different, this time the missing and longing for lost love adds to the sadness and despair and has allowed the darkness to firmly grip me.
I feel tired, alone, worn out and completely, completely worthless. Surplus to absolutely all requirements.
You know that feeling where you feel completely worthless? Where you're convinced that the world is better off without you in it? That if you disappeared tomorrow the only people to look for you would be the bank when your mortgage payment doesn't go through? That feeling where just getting out of bed takes up the energy that is meant to last you the entire day? That feeling where the fact that it's bin day and you have to take it out makes you cry? THAT is where I am at the moment!
I've felt myself slipping for a little while now and usually I'm strong enough to stave off the onslaught but this time I is different, this time the missing and longing for lost love adds to the sadness and despair and has allowed the darkness to firmly grip me.
I feel tired, alone, worn out and completely, completely worthless. Surplus to absolutely all requirements.
