I Fight Depression and Loneliness Everyday

Well, to start with I'm 20, soon to be 21. I'm a student at a university I despise and have no friends. I will graduate next year getting a degree I didn't even want in the first place. The university is so close to my house, where I live with my mom, that I can get back home grab stuff and still make it back to the next class in 20 minutes BY FOOT. Yeah, so I never hang out in school, I have no one. I have zero friends so I dont hang out there. I'm usually home, playing my ukulele, watching TV series, movies, walking my dog, reading, fantasying about the future that never comes. Although, I'd really wish to have fit in with one of the groups, cause its too damn hard to be alone all the time. Mom always asks whats wrong with me and I dont know. I have social anxiety for starters, but she won't understand. I have to break the cycle I live in, do something,anything. For the first time in my life Thought about suicide, which is so not me, cause in my twisted way I love living, I just dont like my style of living it. But still I can't see the light at the end of the tunnel