I Battle Depression

I understand it isnt normal but why cant people believe me instead i get "That it isnt right" "That doesnt happen" how is feel is how i feel..... When i try to explain that since they upped my sleep aid (is also an antidepressant) that ive lost control of my emotions and have never been more depressed than i am now..... but apprently since its suppose to help depression people dont think it can make things worse..... (im sensitive to most antidepressents and more often than not i get really sick. They gave me this one at a low dose than doubled it when it didnt work. i felt fine till this started to happen) I can literally for no reason start crying or ill get so angry that i have be alone or ill hurt someone... Ive never been like this before..... when im not going through mood swimgs my depression has full control.... I dont even know why i try anymore.....

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SW-User

Antidepressants make bipolar cycling worse, including making the depression worse.

Nyanperona · 26-30, T

Ive never had any symptoms of bipolar before but my roommate was questioning if was because of how drastic my mood changed. ive been taking for about a month which is usually when u start to see the antidepressant part come to play but all its dont is make me messed up.

SW-User

Take a look at this and see if you recognize yourself in it:

http://psycheducation.org/

I'm not saying it is, but it might be worth checking out. In the end, I found that a mood stabilizer (lamotrigine) worked where antidepressants just made me crazier.

UndeadPrivateer · 31-35, M

@CamiLynn: Bipolar usually only starts fully manifesting in your 20s or later, if it happens in teens it's considered early-onset.

SW-User

@UndeadPrivateer: It started when I was about 12.

Nyanperona · 26-30, T

I mean ive had emotions like this before but there were always reasons for them. I cant help but think that its related to whats causing my insomnia and the meds are amplfying it.

UndeadPrivateer · 31-35, M

@crossproduct: Yeah, my father was similar. It's like schizophrenia in that it doesn't have a reliable starting age, but it generally doesn't intensify until after neurological development has finished, which is around 25. I've had some suspicious behaviors of my own but they didn't start until around 20 and I'm still not entirely certain it's not just depression. Have spoken to psychiatrists and psychologists and such, it's a hard diagnosis to get nailed down.

SW-User

@UndeadPrivateer: It is hard to nail down. I didn't get the right diagnosis until I was 35.