Adopt me, Accept me, Adore me, Abandon me

Back to reality, and I am just a lost little boy trapped in this scary world alone. I am trying to find my way back home, but where is home exactly? The streets are cruel, but the people inside are even crueler. Where does one go from here? When it's time to discharge back to the life destroyed by these very hands? Who will take care of me when I cannot take care of myself? Who can I count on from this isolated existence? I am just trying to survive, like everyone else, but with absolutely no survival instincts and a diminishing will to live. All I need is someone, anyone to turn to, share in this misery or overpower mine with light...Please? I'd sooner wither away than accept pity or handouts. Cold, shaking, naked, alone. Just as I entered this world, hunger escapes me and all I feel is great emptiness again. Dark, damp, faint murmurs fill my drowning pool. Heaven is closed, and Hell is still preparing my bed of thorns. Nothing to contribute, nothing to show but some 100 pounds of wasted cells. Brain damaged, body stuck in time. Only there is no excuse for this blunder. Today, there is a child staring back at me in these shards of glass piercing his limbs red, yet the ID in my pocket brands me a man...mani..maniac. I love you so much, though. So so much, and I will be there for you, I will comfort you and support you and let you spill your guts, spill your heart, spill your seed, plant a garden and build a treehouse - we can stargaze and drink sparkling wine and dance and sing and fall asleep under a velvet sky. Only that was just a dream, and this is real life, welcome to the freakshow.