I have issues this time of year as well. The sun is in a different position in the sky. I wonder if you feel strange but not in a bad way around january. People like us are just sensitive I guess.

There is something called seasonal defective disorder, I don't really know a lot about it.
It has something to do with the absence of the sun for those months.

The cooler months are hard for me. But I am more and more hardened toward any emotions and move on that way.

Parts of September and December are earth months perhaps you have tough relationships to Virgo ♍ and ♑ energy. There is also a lot of hate in the world.

It's the energy. It's too deep to talk about here sir.