Any genuine advices?

I thought I was doing well... But idk what happened... Idk why am i so gullible i thought mom cared about me but i noticed that everytime i talk about my feelings she gets really mad and shouts at and its always up to me to comfort her like one time i was upset about school and she threatens me to take me out of it so i just stay quiet and keep everything to myself. Now i just get panic attacks if someone asks me what's wrong. Idk... Mom always blames my misery on my diet. But i genuinely did try... I exercise, meditate, be creative and adding healthy food onto my diet but i still get the same harmful thoughts. I don't really care if anyone doesn't take me seriously at this point im at a corner rn im just reaching out for the last time. So any advices to deal with stress or unhappiness cuz i tend to be very sensitive...