I’m literally the biggest contradiction to myself

I want so badly to make friends and have that platonic connection with another female but unless I can physically come see you or you me, I’m terrible at keeping relationships through the phone. I live 800 miles away from my friends and family and I’m terrible about keeping communication with them too. Idk why but it’s hard for me to maintain relationships through Facebook messenger or just through the phone in general. I like to be in your presence if we’re friends. It’s just not the same through the phone