Your mind manifests reality...sadly

And I have been powerfully pessimistic since childhood... Even when things have been good for me, I still experience severe bouts of depression and anxiety.. it's hard to believe anyone's word, in my experience, especially nowadays... Dreams of loved ones lost, haunt me as I wake.. times gone by, too fast...seemingly instantaneous now... Time I wanted to spend with the people I love, weather taken from me, or of my own accord, never going to get over it... It's hopeless now.. a million years wouldn't have been enough anyway... A man that can have his parental rights taken on a whim, isn't really a man at all is he... I would like to take a poll: God is actually Lucifer, and the true creator is neutral to all things and equally absent!