I Think I'm Depressed

Everyday has been generally hard for me but today has over taken any other day. My soul hurts from your memories. I've been in and out of other relationships and I've fallen in love before. But this is just another level. One that a therapist can't even help me with. I feel like you just physically died and you took me with you. I'm probably the most pathetic person here. But I wear your jacket all the time to somehow make me feel like your still with me and it gives me a bit of hope. I watched that movie Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind and I'm considering hypnotherapy. I don't believe in erasing memories but when the emotional pain is too unbearable I will consider it. Because all of it hurts me and it's making me to a person that I never was before.