TW: depressing

I don't know how to phrase this, so I will say it how it is.
I don't want to exist. In an ideal world, I wouldn't exist. I'm fine that way, I just wish we were in that ideal world.
I don't really feel my emotions anymore; I just assume I should feel this way and I only ever really feel wanting to not be here.
I joke that I will get hit by a truck and that I want to go do risky things like skydiving and going to unsafe places, but I want to do that so that maybe I will either feel better, or I will be dead.
To sum it up, I don't want to exist and that is the only thing I am certain of.

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Katie01 · F

Tf do you expect us to do about it

WhoFell · 18-21

@Katie01 nothing. I just felt like talking.

Katie01 · F

@WhoFell do you not have friends

GhostEdit1922

I have felt like this before. Where I don't feel normal and my reaction and emotions never come out. My emotions are just like a blank canvas waiting to be painted on. But then I started to feel better when I got a puppy and had to be contently go outside. After that every once in a while I'll feel depressed wanting to not exist.

Queendragonfly · 31-35, F

I can't relate as the uncertainty of what happens when we due scares me more than any suffers alive. But I struggle with depression too and I know the storms you're facing daily. Know that you're not alone. 💚 Do you have any professional or medical help?

WhoFell · 18-21

@Queendragonfly no. I'm fine. I have my moments. Don't worry about me. Thank you.

Jackaloftheazuresand · 26-30, M

in an ideal world wouldn't you want to though because it would be ideal

but oh well it's pointless, we are powerless and insignificant, including what we want

Diotrephes · 70-79, M

@WhoFell What do you see as your main problem?

WhoFell · 18-21

@Diotrephes thanks for trying to help, but it is not your responsibility. existing is the main problem

Diotrephes · 70-79, M

@WhoFell

thanks for trying to help, but it is not your responsibility. existing is the main problem

One of the things that happens when a person tells others his/her problems, is that the other people will weigh in with their suggestions for solutions or with disparaging comments.

In the Christian path, people are encouraged to confess their sins to one another =
James 5:16 (NKJV) = "Confess your trespasses to one another, and pray for one another, that you may be healed. The effective, fervent prayer of a righteous man avails much."

So, even if a person isn't a Christian but lives in a Christian society, the person is inclined to rat himself out. And when that happens, the person will usually get upset at some of the feedback.

That behavior is completely different for the Islamic behavior.

In Islam can we confess our sins to another person?
"In Islam one cannot disclose his sins (small or big) to anyone; he must keep his secrets (regarding his sins) to himself. From Islam's perspective the self-respect a person has for himself is so significant that he can only confess his sins before God in the sense of asking for forgiveness. Not only will he not lose his respect but by confessing before Allah he will gain more. This is something solely restricted to God, for no other person even if he were to be a trustworthy person, is capable of returning one’s respect (that has been lost when he confesses to that person), let alone increasing it. "
https://www.islamquest.net/en/archive/fa2426

So, the bottom line is that if a person will not be comfortable with a spectrum of feedback then the person should remain silent because humans like to express their opinions on everything.

TeirdalinFirefall · 31-35, M

Sounds like you could use a lot more rest and relaxation.

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