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I exist soley at the behest of others.

For God. A few people I deeply care about.

I usually try my best to be positive. But lately, I must be honest, I am biding my time on this rock until I elapse or it implodes. Which ever comes first.

Some days I can't tell.

I have no love lost for the world and many of the people in it.

But I am sad for the suffering of good people.

I know when my time comes, I will finally be at peace.

In the mean time I do what I can to make the wait bearable and sometimes even enjoyable... Rarely.

Fuck 2022. What a demented evil year.

So much has happened. Things are better now objectively, I am just worn down to hell from the trauma of this hellacious year.

Logically I know it's in large part bad brain chemistry. But in my heart and soul I feel something horrible is going to happen. This sense of sheer doom.

Jesus help me, and Jesus help us all as a species.
kimmy159 · F Best Comment
Wish things would be better for you! You deserve that :-)) I’m here if you want to talk about it! *Huggles*
GeistInTheMachine · 31-35, M
@kimmy159 Thank you, Kimchi.

remove your consciousness from the field of the biological species, and your worries will disappear. puff...
GeistInTheMachine · 31-35, M
@fakable That's what I try to do when I meditate. Unforunately lately I am always "on call," basically.

Meh. Remove conciousness is right, though.
SW-User
GeistInTheMachine · 31-35, M
@SW-User Likewise.

It is what it is. I have made my peace with death. Still, it is hard to know how I will react when the time comes. I hope well, and that it is over quick.

All the best to you.
SW-User
@GeistInTheMachine Thank you. I wish you would feel better also.
GeistInTheMachine · 31-35, M
@SW-User Thank you. Let's see! It'll be fun, I'm sure. 😒
Texassvt · 56-60, F
Sending a hug. I have similar feelings. This time of year always makes me feel bad. The hours of sunlight is less. It gets colder. There are holidays that advertisers try to tell us should be perfect. Ugh. Is it 2023 yet?!
Wiseacre · F
Have u considered SSRI's?
Wiseacre · F
@GeistInTheMachine sorry to hear..they really help some ppl..
GeistInTheMachine · 31-35, M
@Wiseacre And they kill plenty too.
Wiseacre · F
@GeistInTheMachine I can't speak to that...
[media=https://youtu.be/IeblJdB2-Vo]i am trying this it helps
AngryOhioStateAlumnus · 31-35, M
Nobody cares.
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