I need to feel

I feel as if I'm not alive, as if I don't feel anything, I don't recognize what I feel, nothing, except anxiety, I think so, that I feel anxiety, I've been very unmotivated, without wanting to do anything, just wanting to avostarmo for years in my bed, open my cell phone, sleeping, without anyone entering my room, without anyone looking at me or approaching me, being alone and doing absolutely nothing, without having to get up, feeling alive acting as dead, not feeling dead acting normal , as if nothing happened and as if I felt something