I’m not depressed but I’m not normal

im not depressed but im not normal either. I’ve been depressed before and I’ve been normal before too. I’m neither right now I’m in the middle. I just feel down everyday and it’s been going on for years. Like yea I can mask it for an hour when I go out and have fun hanging out with someone but deep down inside something must be bothering me that I can’t pinpoint or some kind of level in my body must be off. Has anyone else experienced this before and what is it?

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riseofthemachine · 41-45, M

Everyone feels that way .
Your lucky you can feel depressed . I goes into addictions to avoid feeling depressed cause basically im afraid if i go into it i might not never come out of it .
I ran from feelings all my life , used drink and weed for years up until i was 24 . That gave up on me too . Im sober and clean 18 years and i can honestly say i never felt depressed cause i didn't give up myself a chance to be depressed or else I've a clean spirit , one or the other .
A friend said to me years ago and it froghtened rhe crap out of me .
She said you have too loose everything too find yourself and she never said to me 😂😂😂 that finding yourself is very painful 😂😂😂. She left that part out .

Spoiledbrat · F

I don't think it's always painful. @riseofthemachine

LadyGrace ·

@riseofthemachine Only it's not about finding yourself. You know right from wrong and what you like already. It's about creating what you want in your life. It won't come running to you. You have to go after it.