I am trying really hard to keep my head above the waters, I am fighting with everything I have in me right now

I can't succumb I have no option but to fight right now because the war rages on and it's a strong advisory. I have to do this on my own no help but I am trying to make healthy choices and push myself in ways that I know will help me crawl out of depression and not further into it. It's exhausting though when everything in me wants to just stop and lay down and surrender. Gotta keep going no rest for me now as it's too dangerous I know that and I have to believe it won't always be like this. I have to believe there is some hope left and that if I keep going I will get through this