I've never sought help so I don't know if I am/was depressed. I generally assume I'm lazy and scatterbrained because I never put off anything I really had to do, like important exams, finals or paying bills. If I have a task, I usually do it, the problem is I have a horrible problem with self-management and self-motivation to do anything consistent on my own initiative that would benefit me in the long run. I'm addicted to fast "rewards", fast satisfying results and if I know in advance they won't come I'm just unmotivated to even start the activity. Okay, I also often ask myself what's the point at all and if this is really what I want. 😶 I just feel like pushing square shape into a round opening and probably should drop it all and start anew with something completely different.
