It's been so long since I've felt happy.

I remember feeling happiness as a kid. And overtime it just disappeared. Probably when I was 12. I'm 26 now. That's a long time of not feeling happy.

Recently I discovered the way to be happy. It comes from within yourself. Medication or alcohol aren't going to do it. And I think that the more I practice it, the more powerful it will become. But I'm so exhausted. I want it now.