Adulting is hard, isn't it. It's good to hear you have a new focus and I hope it makes you a happier you. Your son is a big bright spot, I can tell! I can feel how much you love being his mom. I wish your connection wasn't short circuited by how you feel you look. I'm rooting for you!

I feel the opposite that my 30s were awesome and 40s suck and 20s harsh.

I am in the midst of starting over “ so to speak “

Good luck with your endeavors and if you ever need a girl friend , I do too