I Am Confused, Anxious, and Depressed

None of these words are ones I'd normally use to describe myself, but I just cancelled a fairly major trip at no small cost to the association I represent for this trip. I feel like by cancelling this I've let a lot of people down who were counting on me, but I just can't at this point.

I've been sick for a month, although I'm finally feeling a little better, I still haven't had proper rest in weeks.

I'm leading negotiations for my union, which is incredibly mentally stressful and requires a lot of time and effort.

My wife is, and has been severely ill for the past year, which means that home is never really easy.

My job, which I like, requires concentration and energy and intelligence. Because of extensive travelling for my association, I've missed a lot of work, which makes the days I am at work stressful.

So now I've finished cancelling my flight, conference sessions, hotel, meeting up with three different friends, and a million other things. I feel like shit. But this is for the best, and the immediate reactoin of others in my association was concern rather than anger at my cancelling at the last second. I'm around good people. I'll be okay. I just need to rest.