I Fight Depression and Loneliness Everyday
If reality just sucks.....
if f you ask me which place makes me most suffocated, I would say, that it would be my House.
Why? Cause this the only place where I get so judged that sometimes, I wanna jump somewhere off.
It makes me worthless and they destory even the tiny confidence I have left in my whole life.
No ones understand me in this real World how I feel, I hate fighting, I hate to be compared, I hate to change myself, I hate not be true with myself. I hate it, that no one understand me.
If my parents can't accept how I'm, how do they expect other would like me.
Sure, I sit often in front of the computer why? Cause it didn't judge me, it didn't ask me and I can stare at long as I want.
True I 'm cold towards everyone. Why ? cause everything makes me sick.
True that i can't have a normal conversation with other why? Cause my parents, decides with whom I talk and how.
True I eat prefer to eat alone, cause every time when I look at my opposite there is no one, who can says sweet words to me.
True I love books and other old and classic things? Why It gives me, the feeling to be at home.
True I daydream often, why ? It hinders me from jumping off some building.
True, everyone has their own problems and they are much more horrible than this, but what should I do for 26 years it's a circle I can't escape.
All I do it, just to say, wait just wait, hold on longer one day everything will become better. One day, you can also find happiness, without wanting to destroy it.
sometimes, I wish I could despair to some Island and just sit there and stare into the wide ocean. Without feeling anything.
if f you ask me which place makes me most suffocated, I would say, that it would be my House.
Why? Cause this the only place where I get so judged that sometimes, I wanna jump somewhere off.
It makes me worthless and they destory even the tiny confidence I have left in my whole life.
No ones understand me in this real World how I feel, I hate fighting, I hate to be compared, I hate to change myself, I hate not be true with myself. I hate it, that no one understand me.
If my parents can't accept how I'm, how do they expect other would like me.
Sure, I sit often in front of the computer why? Cause it didn't judge me, it didn't ask me and I can stare at long as I want.
True I 'm cold towards everyone. Why ? cause everything makes me sick.
True that i can't have a normal conversation with other why? Cause my parents, decides with whom I talk and how.
True I eat prefer to eat alone, cause every time when I look at my opposite there is no one, who can says sweet words to me.
True I love books and other old and classic things? Why It gives me, the feeling to be at home.
True I daydream often, why ? It hinders me from jumping off some building.
True, everyone has their own problems and they are much more horrible than this, but what should I do for 26 years it's a circle I can't escape.
All I do it, just to say, wait just wait, hold on longer one day everything will become better. One day, you can also find happiness, without wanting to destroy it.
sometimes, I wish I could despair to some Island and just sit there and stare into the wide ocean. Without feeling anything.
