Hate adulting [I Battle Depression]

I absolutely hate adulting being autistic and living on my own with 0 help is even harder I hate hate hate it I'm responsible for everything I don't even want to be responsible for everything is maintanance your body requires soooo much maintenance and repetiveness on its own brush teeth showering and skincare is just so complicated especially at my age where you just break out just because.
I have to figure out what to eat 3times a day that's a lot of prepping cooking or very expensive pre made meals that's why I only eat twice a day because it's too much effort not to mention I cook only to save money I loathe it if I was rich enough to hire a cook I wouldn't even cut an apple again😆
Along with cooking you have to buy weekly ingredients as fruit and veg go off very quick it's so draining same thing every week.

I get assistance for paying bills and government aid as I really need it but just living is harddd then you got to go to work every day or so work at some shit job just to maintain what you already have car house rent ect working to live isn't living animals are so lucky and I'm very envious of them they can just be and we have to abide by rules and a system that someone else who's probably dead made.
Then you have to clothe yourself and get a whole wardrobe if you lose or gain a lot of weight picking clothes that are suitable for the weather and that look good on you though I don't really care about how I look whatever is comfortable.
As I got into my teens I was hit with so much stuff and responsibility waxing shaving grooming it never ends.
To live as an adult is never ending maintenance and stress I never signed up for.