Feeling super lonely. [I Am Depressed]

I know why - it's a combination of my most valued social interactions (going to warhammer) and stuff which is kind of more complicated.

For most of my adult life, some part of me has wanted a family, and approaching 30, it's pretty clear at this point that it's not likely to happen. And longing for something that isn't going to come - death, love, affection, intimacy - is something I'm trying to work through (but not doing too well at).

I have been wondering whether the former has exacerbated the latter, but no conclusion has been reached.

There's really no expectation or need for anyone to actually see this, so please don't waste your time on my trivial bullshit.