to medicate or not medicate... that is the question [I Battle Depression]

I stopped taking my anxiety/ anti- depressant medication recently for a few weeks and idk what to do. I feel like shit on my medication and I feel like shit off of it. I'm feeling really depressed and haven't been taking care of myself at all lately. I feel like everything is meaningless. Why go to work, why stay home, why breathe, why wake up in the morning... I then decided to take my medication again a few days ago and it's helped with the constant panic attacks, but I'm still depressed and still just can't see the point in getting out of bed... plus the medication I take makes me constantly tired... I got 12 hours of sleep last night and still was exhausted all day