What is something to look forward to? [I Battle Depression]

@PoizonApple I met a girl online overseas. I talked to her a few times. She was planning her first vacation to America and said she wanted to meet me when she comes through my area. I know the chances of her falling for me are VERY slim but it was still the excitement of what if.

Covid changed all that. She doesn't know when or if she will make it here now. So the little chance is gone and now I'm just sitting here alone night after night. I was riding my bicycle and going to the gym but it's too cold and my gym is closed.

@Ragnarock1276 covid blew my travel plans up as well. I look forward to it being gone

@PoizonApple me too. After my parents passed I live alone now. I made sure they never went into a nursing home. No woman wanted to be with a mommas boy so here I am.

@Ragnarock1276 You are better off even with covid having wasted some of your time. That stuff rarely works out and is just years lost of your life but with a broken heart ontop of it. When you meet people in person they are so different, and even if you still feel the same, they probably think you are way different than they thought.

@Earthwrap true. That was always there poking holes in my fantasy. But I shut it out to keep moving forward. When meeting her fell through I couldn't shut it out anymore and started slipping back into depression.

@Ragnarock1276 Well if it's not depression from being lonely, it's depression from a broken heart. can never win. Gotta find inner happiness somehow. Easier said than done. I'm still working on finding that myself.