I can't accept it. I still can't believe it's real. Still can't believe he's gone. [I Am Depressed]

Still can't believe it. I can't. I can't. I can't. I want him so much. He's the only one I've ever come to love. He cared so much. He was always there... I can't believe it.... I can't. I can't. I can't. I can't. I can't. I can't. This isn't happening. This isn't real.
Come back. Please come back. Live here with me. Stay with me. Please don't be miles away. Please. Leave everything. We were supposed to be together.