I'm not in a great place right now. [I Am Depressed]

Things with my girl have been awkward at best since she came back. We still love each other, but what do you say after what happened? As a result, things have been stilted between us: she keeps saying she loves me, but it feels like there's a gulf between us now. And she told me that she didn't want to live and wtf does one even say to that.

Sorry, I know nobody gives a fk about this sort of thing. Just had to get my thoughts out to figure stuff out.