I Battle Depression

Hello I have been battling depression since i can remember i feel so alone i honestly don't know what to do anymore i feel as if i will never find someone to be with someone who loves me for who i am on the inside who i can love in return but as much as i want that it won't happen because i don't know what to do i am 25 and attracted to guys i have never been with anyone or even kissed someone before i don't see myself as that attractive i am skinny have messed up teeth and nothing really to offer anyone i honestly think i will be alone forever. I hardly sleep, I don't feel hungry anymore i usually eat something small once a day i think about just ending my life everyday my life just seems so hopeless that things will never get better only worse that i will never be able to accept that i am Gay that i will never be happy and the people close to me would never accept me if they found out if i lost my friend and my family i would have nothing left to life for they are honestly the only reason i stick around in my messed up world

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