I Battle Depression

I have been sick most of this week, and as I'm recovering, I'm realizing that my creative drive is dead. Creating illustrations was one of my escapes. I've always enjoyed making art, because it has made me feel as if I had some kind of control in my life. I had just gifted myself a new ipad a month ago to help myself create more interesting pieces. Now, my mind is a creative desert. I'm devastated. I thought I would be more motivated after my illness, but my sadness has come back to haunt me. My sadness has killed any motivation I had. I'll never be successful.

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Peapod · 61-69, F

Have you had treatment for your depression? It's definitely something you should not endure without help. Medication and therapy can make a huge difference.

lovecatsnothumans · 31-35, F

@Peapod I don't trust people that treat the mentally ill.

Peapod · 61-69, F

@lovecatsnothumans, I well understand that since there are a lot that have no business being in the profession. It really does take good recommendations from others you trust. Once you have a good treatment team, it can be the difference between wanting to harm yourself or live a full life.

I hope you find what you need. I am also an artist and it is hard to be creative when you are really in a bad place. Sometimes a short trip out to walk around or do something different can help change your moods.

I know I suffered for a long time before I sought out help. In my case, I had a family dependent on me, so I had to do something.