Everyone who replied here, I'm sure carries pain. Best medicine for emotional pain is to have someone to listen. Just that alone allows most to move on. It the listening part that is key
I believe we shouldn't make that decision until we go on a world trip. If suicide is the last choice then let the method be through natural dehydration and hunger. Of course before that happens you'll find happiness within you.
SW-User
I know I can't change your mind. Even I am strunggling to be alive. But before you do something, please give a call to someone you know or the hotline at least.