I Battle Depression
I wouldn't be one to normally post something like this but people need to know what it's like and that no matter what you're not alone no matter how much it feels like you are. The only reason how I can explain it is because I suffer from both.
When you suffer from both Depression and Anxiety it's not a good feeling because all you do is push those away who love and care for you those who only want what's best for you but you get to a certain point to where you're so low you feel like you've hit rock bottom then you get put on tablets they either do one of two things make you know you're at your lowest making you wait till you can finally be yourself again on they make you remember how to smile they make you remember a person who you used to be but the sad truth is a front goes on a face that hides how they really feel that laugh you hear fake that smile you see fake all because it takes so much out of you and you put it on because to everyone else you're fine you're known as this strong person who shows no emotions but what they do not know is that behind closed doors you take that face off and you are back to your vulnerable self.
The "I don't knows" and the emptiness become naturally and you push those away because you know you're a ticking time bomb waiting to explode so isolate yourself because you know you'll hurt them and you don't want to do that but you can't help it as it's hows you've dealt with things by isolating yourself because you know they only person you can hurt is yourself yes pushing those away hurts them but if they understand that you're doing all you can to be who they want and need you to be a person that was always yourself but you never knew you had such as depression and anxiety until you start waking up in the night for no reason so many times to where it because so normal to you to where you're motivation is gone for everything even hobbies that you once loved.
Depression and Anxiety aren't just draining they are you living with your demons and you're trying to satisfy them and the real world but when they clash and after a period of time they become a new reality for you. You know who is truly close to you by when you go through it that they are there to try and pull you out but there are others who just want you to push aside how you feel as if nothing happened but you find it hard to also others who have heard one thing or one side of a story and assume that you're the worst but NEWS FLASH each time you interfere with someone's life it never helps them people need to stay out of other peoples business but that's the world we live in people thinking they know other peoples best interest.
Never be afraid to talk to someone about if not one but both Depression and Anxiety because there are people out there who understand exactly how you feel only those who suffer from at least one they are the ones who really and truly understand you.
When you suffer from both Depression and Anxiety it's not a good feeling because all you do is push those away who love and care for you those who only want what's best for you but you get to a certain point to where you're so low you feel like you've hit rock bottom then you get put on tablets they either do one of two things make you know you're at your lowest making you wait till you can finally be yourself again on they make you remember how to smile they make you remember a person who you used to be but the sad truth is a front goes on a face that hides how they really feel that laugh you hear fake that smile you see fake all because it takes so much out of you and you put it on because to everyone else you're fine you're known as this strong person who shows no emotions but what they do not know is that behind closed doors you take that face off and you are back to your vulnerable self.
The "I don't knows" and the emptiness become naturally and you push those away because you know you're a ticking time bomb waiting to explode so isolate yourself because you know you'll hurt them and you don't want to do that but you can't help it as it's hows you've dealt with things by isolating yourself because you know they only person you can hurt is yourself yes pushing those away hurts them but if they understand that you're doing all you can to be who they want and need you to be a person that was always yourself but you never knew you had such as depression and anxiety until you start waking up in the night for no reason so many times to where it because so normal to you to where you're motivation is gone for everything even hobbies that you once loved.
Depression and Anxiety aren't just draining they are you living with your demons and you're trying to satisfy them and the real world but when they clash and after a period of time they become a new reality for you. You know who is truly close to you by when you go through it that they are there to try and pull you out but there are others who just want you to push aside how you feel as if nothing happened but you find it hard to also others who have heard one thing or one side of a story and assume that you're the worst but NEWS FLASH each time you interfere with someone's life it never helps them people need to stay out of other peoples business but that's the world we live in people thinking they know other peoples best interest.
Never be afraid to talk to someone about if not one but both Depression and Anxiety because there are people out there who understand exactly how you feel only those who suffer from at least one they are the ones who really and truly understand you.
22-25, F
