I Battle Depression

I’m having a really rough day today. I’ve had a rough past couple of months. When I try to talk to my husband about my depression he gets frustrated with me. I know it’s probably frustrating being with someone that is always negative but I can’t shut my mind off I’m like a prisoner of my mind. I am worried he is gonna get tired of dealing with it and leave me. My MIL got mad at me earlier because I wouldn’t FaceTime. I don’t think they realize how close I am to hurting myself. No one gets it I’m in so much pain