I Randomly Get Depressed
This year I just want to be happy. I dont want to deal with this randomly getting sad. I don't want to deal with people leaving. I dont want to deal with the loneliness. I just want to smile. I want to have friends. I dont want to be used. Or thrown away when I am no longer needed. I want true friends. Not to be replaceable and only talked to when someone is having a horrible day and just wants to vent for 45 minutes. I want to have conversations even if sometimes I dont know what to say. I want my eyes to be clear of tears. And my arms free of cuts. I want to be happy. I want this to be a good year and not like the rest of the years. I want all the people who hurt and left and used me to realize what they did. I want to find people who are patient with me and dont get angry I am sad. Who dont get mad at me for being depressed then turn around and talk about whats bothering them. I just want to be happy.