I Fight Depression and Loneliness Everyday

So many times i think that i have overcome it , but it keeps hitting back and it feels so shameful to talk about it with anyone . I tried (still do) everything to get over it , been a loner , very few friends , whoever knows me don't have even a slightest clue about what goes in my mind at times and how bad it makes me feel of myself , these negative thoughts they just keep on running in my mind making me feel i am nothing , although i know i am capable of achieving so many things but these thoughts make me give up or the worst won't even let me try . I have a belief system which helps me but that also sometimes break down at times and i have to build that up again . I just don't what will happen with me , whether i am going to achieve my dreams or am i going to die the same way which i really don't want . used sw for the first time to write my inner dark thoughts and i feel a little less burden . God Bless you all good people

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SW-User

Hugs
You've always written such beautiful words of support before, you have often made me feel stronger.
I only talk about my depression and anxiety here, it does help.
Take each day as it comes, try and be productive - set yourself little goals, find a hobby, get creative.
You are a good person and I'm here if you need to talk

Calmsoul · 31-35, M

that was really nice to know that my posts helped someone , but i wish i really meant them , i don't like posting about depression and all but thanks for your support and advice and i wish you too get rid of them soon :)

SW-User

@Calmsoul: my state of mind compared to 2 months back is so much better. I still have bad days but I think my meds are kicking in.
I get not talking to someone in RL, the stigma is so high and you don't always get a helpful response. I told 2 friends, one has been very supportive, the other hasn't spoken to me since :/

Calmsoul · 31-35, M

@InOtterWords: that is the same reason i keep such things to myself , the only one who can support you is the one who understands all these emotions , its good that you have improved over time and i wish in few months more you won't even need any support for it :)

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@Calmsoul: I hope so too, this is normally a tough month for me, not just because of memories but also it marks summer being over and shorter days and i tend to be worse in winter months, but Hopefully the pills will see me through the winter months and springtime I can look to come off them.

Calmsoul · 31-35, M

@InOtterWords: i wish you very best to you my friend , i hope you are able to quit those meds & live happily without them , you have a desire for it & it is very strong & it will come true . God Bless you my friend :)