I Battle Depression

@Lostpoet Oh there's many reasons. I'm not just depressed just because I have depression. Everything I'm dealing with is too much. After being sober for a long time I got drunk as fuck last night , realizing how pathetic my life really is. Nothing goes right for me. I'm literally wasting space for existing I feel like. Nothing good comes out of my life and I seem to attract negative shit. I rarely see the positive things in life no matter how positive I try to be. It's like it's all pointless or something.

@justicexoxoxo Your life isn't pathetic most people in there early twenties go out and get wasted. And you got drunk once that doesn't mean you lost all those days that you were sober, everbody slips now and then.

@Lostpoet Drunk once? That's why you think I'm depressed? Lol Hun no, that's not even close. I was just telling you I got drunk because I was depressed and how I hadn't drank in years. So that made me more depressed breaking that streak along with a million other things I'm dealing with. It's not about the drinking.

@justicexoxoxo I'm sorry you are dealing with those things. But give it time and talk to a counselor or something to get this fixed.

@Lostpoet Most therapists or counselors can't help me. They're good listeners I'll admit but that's all it is. Me talking and them listening. I can talk to myself and get a better feedback and response then to pay some professional who sees a thousand faces and doesn't really give a damn about my life problems. I'm just another pay check to most of these people, that's the harsh truth. It's not me trying to see everything in a negative light. I used to work in the healthcare field and I Know most of these people do it for money. Healthfield is one of the most corrupt, fakest industries out there. It's bunch of corporate a holes who want to sink your wallet into the toilet and are greedy for your dollars pretending to give a hell hole about your issues.