I Am Depressed

Life has come down to a repetitive cycle that rarely changes week by week. Medication and therapy then the family members who pretend to understand. If my mood changes in the slightest they ask if it’s the pills or worse assume I’m planning to kill myself. Some even go to the extent of bringing up my cousin, who committed suicide earlier this year, as a way of saying not to do it. To be honest the pills have left me in limbo where emotions are hard to distinguish. The side effects have even made my insomnia worse so the mixture has left me wanting to just lay in bed forever.

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Blessedbeyond · 26-30, M

I feel this a lot. I wish some people can understand how I feel i don’t need it, but it would be nice. Ultimitely, God is the only one who understands... The meds confuse me too as I can’t distinguish my true feelings as well, yes they help sometimes, but other times they become a stumbling block, something toxic. I don’t like If people put me in a box if I don’t act the same every day. If you wanna talk message me anytime by the way

WolfMaiden · 26-30, F

@Blessedbeyond Thank you, and you're more than welcome to message me if you want to talk. I hate not being able to tell what I'm actually feeling. It's almost as if there is a void or a road block. I agree it would be nice if people understood.

Blessedbeyond · 26-30, M

It’s very hard to express what I really wanna say at times. There comes a point in the day when I’m stressed that all my words aren’t what I really want to say at all.. It’s frustrating

WolfMaiden · 26-30, F

@Blessedbeyond Both sound equally frustrating.

SStarfish ·

I was pretty sad the past few days too and moody.. It's a feeling of being rejected and hopless and at fault for me and a dread that it was never going to change and be better ..

But i found that accepting reality as is and trying to make the best of it; like "look on the bright side" and be forgiving and understanding and accepting of others and gracious to their faults

Gives you a better brighter outlook on life and leaves you with happier sentiments :)

Idk :)

rokrchik1211 · 26-30, F

Sounds like your meds may need changed, although I know how much of a hassle that can be.

WolfMaiden · 26-30, F

@rokrchik1211 Once I finish the bottle they're giving me new ones. Hopefully they'll work better, but I'm not too optimistic.

SW-User

I'm depressed to hear you're depressed.

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