I Battle Depression

One thing I noticed when I think about suicide is that I've changed. Before when I think about it, I tried to convince myself that people will be affected therefore I shouldn't do it. Which worked. Poorly. It's not for everyone. Now though, when I think about wanting to die, I think about wanting to live. I want to experience life. Because I haven't experienced much of it . I haven't attempted anything since I thought about that. I might be winning the battle. Things haven't changed much but I manage to focus more on the things that makes me happy. But of course, I still have my downs. Like right now.