I Battle Depression

I know exactly what she feels like one day I felt like I couldnt take it anymore so I put a shotgun to my head and as crazy or strange as this might sound , as soon as I prepared to pull the trigger I heard an unexpected knock at my door so I put the gun away and answered the door and it was two of my 3 daughters , who I welcomed with open arms of course , but as it turned out they made a wrong turn trying to go home ( the opposite direction ) and ended up noticing my condo complex and so they decided to visit , now I don’t know what you believe but I call that divine intervention , to me that was a divine sighn telling me that god has other plans for me , although I’m not really sure what those plans are but I decided to stay around to try to figure it out , maybe I never really will but I think it will be worth the journey to at least try , that moment was a life changing soul shifting moment for me I made a spiritual change in my life and decided to accept god more into my life , since for years I had doubted his presence in my life , but I believe he was always there for me I just resisted acknowledging him for many years after me and my wife’s marriage began to fall apart and we are now seperated , I’ve was severely depressed about it for about it for about 1 1/2 years and maybe a little still 4 1/2 years later but my depression now i think it’s more about my struggle to get back on my feet now living on my own.