I Battle Depression

I fight depression everyday. All I do is watch TV, do the dishes, go to work and scroll on this site. I want to do so much more with my life yet I cant seem to get up and do it. Leaving the house to do grocery shopping or hang out with friends takes so much out of me. I can hardly focus on anything. I try so hard to be happy all the time. I want to get therapy and help to work through my issues but I am so terrified of being disappointed and knowing that I am beyond help. Beyond redemption. I'm also terrified that my therapist will judge me unfairly and give poor advice. So I'd be short money on top of feeling broken. Nothing seems to help