I Battle Depression

I am sitting here with tears in my eyes as I cry from the hurt and pain that I feel. I feel so alone in this. I am so alone. I am all I've got but I hate myself and can't stand feeling this much hurt. I am about to cut myself a lot and very deep. I need some kind of relief or maybe I'll even bleed out. I just want to kill myself because I can't take this anymore. I am just a pathetic waste of space anyway. I am a burden. I bring people down and I push them away. I feel so isolated from everyone and everything. The loneliness is too much. It hurts so bad, but yet I keep people at a distance because everytime I let them in, i got hurt in the end and left alone and broken with my life even more shattered than it was before, so I put up walls, for protection so I can get through, but I just can't anymore. I am just done. I give up. I guess I'm just not strong enough.