I Fight Depression and Loneliness Everyday

How does someone who has been with you for Sooo long not see the pain and depression you're going through , everyday I show a big smile but no one not even my partner knows what I'm feeling because I'm to busy trying to sort other people's lives out while forgetting about mine ...How about a few drinks ? Sounds good to me 😂 that's the escape , yes it's fun but at the moment of consuming , there's no worries , just you and the bottle in your hand , but hey, you judged on that ...

All you know is you care about someone so much and they continuously break you over and over again but you keep quiet and still show a big smile ...Some deep shit goes in your mind but you pretend to be so satisfied with everything ... I fight , Yes ...but I'm giving up slowly.