I Battle Depression

I had a tattoo appointment yesterday. I was a complete grumpy asshole. I didn’t mean to be, I just couldn’t shake the bad mood. I didn’t even sit through the whole session. I was bored, restless, annoyed, sad... I don’t get joy from the same things I used to and it’s getting worse. I’ve tried to shake it for weeks now. I can’t talk to anyone about it so I’m left feeling crazy and ashamed for not being happy when I know I should. This is a slow and terrible process that I feel hopelessly unable to shake out of. :-(