I Fight Depression and Social Anxiety Everyday

I hate to go out in public, especially in crowded places. I just feel like everyone is judging me because I'm overweight. It's something that I've felt ever since I was in school. I got picked on and teased all the time because I was the chubby kid that wore only jogging outfits. So this always weighs in the back of my mind when I'm out in public, especially if it's crowded. I go every year on vacation with my family and I can't go on the boardwalk at night because it's so packed with people I feel like I have a million eyes staring at me. These people of course all look better than I do, so that gets me depressed and anxious. It's difficult because my job has to do with working with the public so I've got to keep it in check there. But it keeps me from sampling new things in my life. I hate it but I try my best. I'm even on medicine for anxiety/depression. But Of course I hardly succeed. Just wish I wasn't so anxious around people.