I Am Depressed

Has anyone else noticed how selfish depression is? everytime I feel depressed I say I like 7 times in one sentence, "Oh I am depressed because I am disabled and I can't work but I am expected to work because I don't look disabled" see what I mean I, I, I, Me, me, me << Wow self-centred much? The problem is it's difficult not to be self centred when you're feeling like a failure, worthless like a waste of space who doesn't belong, because in the long run I think everyone else would be better off if I didn't exist I am a horrible person. Why do people always say love yourself? No-one else has ever bothered to love me because I am unlovable my mum doesn't love me no-one in my family does, my ex girl never loved me, it's me pushing everyone away I'm like a faulty computer, because that's how my brain works it makes connections, and puzzles and figures everything out logically I show almost no emotion I have emotion but I guess people don't believe in what they can't see that's why there are so many non-religious people. I don't show emotion because I have aspergers, but I have it in abundance I care so much for other people, working with people with more severe disabilities at the time has made me feel good but afterwards I think they're unable to do as much as I do and even they're more loved than me so I must be a really rotten thing to be hated by so many people on so many different levels