I Fight Depression and Loneliness Everyday

So I guess I'm going to REALLY recover this time I freaking hate it but I have to do this. Honestly nothing matters anymore I have a fuc*ed up mind and a screwed life ever since my childhood. I have no freedom whatsoever so what's the point in trying to be pretty? I actually fainted because my father scolded me really bad today morning. I just want to die but of course suicide isn't a choice. I just don't understand why am I living anymore. I'll prolly start cutting again. I just don't care anymore. I'm a liar and a cheater right dad? I'm a complete mistake.

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KingOfSkies · M

Don't give up. Whatever you do don't give up.

Life is hard. That's why we always have to fight. Life will throw curveballs. Things like mental illness.

Mental illness doesn't change who you are on the inside, on the deepest, most spiritual level possible. It may change how you think and what you do but it doesn't change your soul.

It's far beyond my reach to say this but I'm going to say it anyway: do not let what he does devalue you. You are worth so much more than what words can say. You are not a mistake. You are someone greater. Someone who is going to rise up and ascend past what's held her.

You will transcend all of this. You'll rise and when you do things will be better. I promise.

We're all here for you. In the woodwork.

If you ever need us you can talk to us. It's what we're here for.